ohsoironic!

sometimes its hard just being YOURSELF

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 06:49:26 GMT

im trying so hard not to take this to heart, but i cant and tears just kept flowing.

i regretted going for that.
i so miss the times when i only have my committee people. we talked about anything under the sky, we joked we laughed. i didnt know many people back then, but im happy, very very happy indeed; cos they know who i really am.
now, not anymore.

words are hurtful, they dont realised it.

i dont play the game, so keep me out of it.

mouths that gossip are evil, know someone better before commenting will you (:
cos its really painful.

anyway in case theres another misunderstanding, this isnt about the joke that they made regarding me and one gd friend of mine. so ya, dont anyhow think okay. im fine with that, dont think im angry la! im not, just for laugh whattt(:

this will be the last post im posting here, i think i need some privacy cos i totally didnt expect this kinda situation.

my dear beloved true friends, leave a comment to tell me you're reading. ill msg/msn you my new blog add and add you to my new blog alrights. cos i dont know when my new one will be done so ill get back to you.
sorry for the sudden change!!! please understand ok. ill prolly close this tmr.

if not, thanks for reading people, ((:

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 18:22:21 GMT

it was good((: was really fascinated by the science centre and the exhibition haha, its been eons since i last read those physics terms =S andand ive learnt my lesson, never rush till the last day. the queue was damn long just to enter, and sadly im one of em =(

SHOKUDO DINNER ((:

i love jurong east's fish ball noodles too cos of the extra FREE bah kut HAHA!

tired tired tired, im missing my sch's jia cai peng =(

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 15:28:57 GMT

henry,"papa got increment. shhhh!"
me,"hmmmmm you know ah, your daughter v poor recently ehhhhhhhh"
henry,"okok la! go take from your mummy. SHHHHH!!!"

HAAAAA! omg, how cute can my dad be. love!
i miss him so much =(

i would so rather he earns lesser here, at least i have him by my side. and ill promise ill shop less to get him back.
PROMISE!

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 15:15:22 GMT

Trying to squash a rumor is like trying to unring a bell. ~Shana Alexander

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 03:14:18 GMT

hello world! greeting from bangkok ((:

internet cafe here is really cheap, 10baht for 15mins which is like, less around 40cents?? so decided its cheaper to use internet rather than the expensive overseas call and msges.

anyway life has been great so far, clothes are dirt cheap but i didnt manage to get any shoes or bags cos they just arent my thing. hopefully ill find nice ones the last 2 days im here. but im having so much fun bargaining and its just the satisfaction that matters hoho. and im sleeping SO LITTLE. i slept at 4am last night, and woke up at 8 this morning. they say we're here to SHOP not to SLEEP. true la but im still tired =( OH! i finally witnessed the legendary traffic congestion in bkk, its insane. and its fun trying to FIGURE OUT who is the TRANSFORMERS here. im always guessing it wrong cos they totally look like one hot babe if they dont speak!

i miss my big bed at home. i miss my family i miss my dog.

its just very different going overseas with your friends and with your family. everything is so so well taken care of when i travel with my parents, i dont have to worry a single thing($$$, luggage). and thankfully my 3 dear friends here are really protective of me too so yup no worries! i just have to learn to be more independent at times (:

yup hopefully my loved ones are here to read this(:

yet, a part of me wishes this will never end

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 16:21:17 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE ((:

pictures of preview

the two days of mugging with gb(: thanks for accompanying! you'll finish your harry potter book cos of mee!

my malay cousin's engagement. malay's wedding is really special, they've to prepare cakes and all to exchange and every single one of the desserts are super pretty! all the pictures on fb!

Dinner and movie date wit small boy (:
stop saying im a heartbreaker, IM NOT! hahahaha meet up soon when im back!

camwhored with nana. heh love this girl so much. we took like, 77 pictures in less than 1 hour???? pardon the middle finger picture, she said sth stupid that i just hv to point that to her, out of desperation. HAA! im not like this really, REALLY.

Haagen Dazs Fondue with cs and mummy after mj ytd. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! i cant get enough of ice cream, just makes me smile (:

im off to pack my luggage! im having mixed feelings now, dont know why.

i dont know if you would, but i wish you will (:

its so nice to fall in love.

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 17:43:59 GMT

有人说：如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她。有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的。有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃。人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱变成一种伤害。当一个男人为一个女人哭了，那说明他真的爱了。当一个女人为一个男人哭了，那说明她真的放弃了。

find this quite meaningful(:

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 18:04:03 GMT

UP is gooood. a lil exaggerating but, oh wells ITS A SHOW ITS A SHOW.

i had a great time, and not just cos of the movie(: found ivan lim's twin and its always nice to have someone whom you can talk so comfortably with. thanks so much for the chocolate which you made me so addicted to(then chose to abandon me if train officer fined me, what a great friend) and the Daily Bread. ill read it b4 i sleep tonight,CROSS HEART!

he forced me to say good stuff about him, so here it is:
name:daniel chua
age:22
height:178cm
weight: SECRET
hobby: swimming(only can swim 10 laps), vball, badminton, and er the last one i forgot

eligible bachelor, 100% GUARANTEED! no refund tho! ((:

there are some ec whom you just see,WAH and they made your day.
some, you totally lost yourself infront of him and you just wished you didnt do those stupid stuff you did minutes ago, and they ruined your day instead, nearly died of embarrassment.
(eileen dear, only YOU understand)

but whatever it is, ......... stay far.

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 06:32:11 GMT

You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 18:50:59 GMT

if only i could read your mind,

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 18:31:03 GMT

简单一点，那该多好

是我太简单了，还是大家太复杂

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 15:32:17 GMT

IM SO HAPPY COS I HAD ICE CREAM JUST NOW (:

i feel like getting a SLR so i can take all the beautiful views in bkk,
but i better think twice think thrice.
i feel like getting a DS Lite cos MCP just intro-ed me a fun game,
but i better think twice think thrice too.

sigh when its all just about $$$ and im always buying on impulse.

have been sleeping at 4am every night, woke up in the early morning cos hv been coughing non stop.
its only till these 2 days that i relied on medication to sleep. but it makes me feel so lethargic. im alr slow enough in responding to ppl, and this makes me worse. haa.

eye candy should REALLY just remain as it is.
i regretted.

okay la i guess ill better slp early,
6 more days.

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 04:01:28 GMT

Hello lonely
Now that you're gone I can move on
Goodbye sweet thing
Just know that I've been here all along

behind every smile, there lies a sad story.

YAYNESS!

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 16:06:35 GMT

FINALLY, BANGKOK HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tmr my mum is gonna call up travel agency, and im going taiwan in oct YAY!!!!
dad is asking me to go over his place for a short vacation, and all i need is just a boarding pass((:
seriously how nice can this be! cant use enough exclamation marks to express how excited im feeling now HOHOHO.
shall save up for my shanghai air ticket, $$$$$$$$$$$

to my 13 yrs best friend, P1 classmate, ex boyfriend, quarrel mate and my santa claus ((:

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 10:48:59 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAN!!!!!

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 16:54:00 GMT

okay here're some updates!

last week was busy with camp. i could make do with the below-avg-food but the serious lack of sleep was killer. the 2 phonecalls to my mum were perhaps the only calls i made for the 4 days. sorry to all for MIA-ED, im back!
made many new friends tru this, and thanks so much for denise for being such a nice roomie, sc,wuzunming,nigel,steven&ervin for making this camp so fun with all your nonsense =D thanks so much for all your help too! (helping me carry my big bag was way good enough)

woke up early the next morning to meet my dear bitches <3 they are the only ones who can make me give up my sleep for!

and last night, the chat with eileen dear was really good. im so glad i had her at tt time.

its saddening. when you're finally having something you were once willing to give up everything for, but its only then that you realised its not what you truly want.
yes it takes 2 hands to clap, and i shouldnt expect anything when im so afraid to commit again.
so i made this decision and i wish its the best for everyone.
if you think its only you, its not.

so this weekend was exceptionally quiet, chose to lock myself at home. did selective replying, and nuaing all the way.
and im so surprised how im enjoying this quiet time to myself.

at the very least,
i dont have to pin any hopes, and end up with disappointments.

dont ask me what can you do to make it better, nothing.

Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, dont patronize me
Ill close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you dont feel when youre holding me
Morning will come and Ill do whats right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I cant make you love me if you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 04:38:02 GMT

Henry told my mum,"I'M SCARED AH GIRL CANT FIND A BOYFRIEND"

i didnt know my dad has this worry haha, but the 'CANT' word is so saddening!

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 15:06:56 GMT

It's never enough to say I love you
It's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing.

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind.

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street.
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 15:07:55 GMT

IM FEELING EXTREMELY HAPPY (: (: (:

next week-may not have my 12 hours of sleep, may get tanned(tho im not gonna allow that, bought 3 bottles of sunblock),many mosquito bites which results in ugly scars(not allowing too!), looking chui but still kinda excited.
and recently ive been so so pampered by everyone around that i feel like such a royalty (:

I believe ill know what i want when the time comes.
for now, ive said my piece and i really dont want to be troubled over this anymore.
sorry to say this, but ive had enough bearing the pain of others and i just want freedom now.

weekends please come soon!

yeah gonna sleep early tonight <3

i dont want such a busy life

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 16:22:47 GMT

i was so about to click 'CONTINUE' for my bangkok trip, an error box appeared and its only then that i realised my passport has expired. i didnt know we need to have at least 6 mths before departure date. shit,not as if im so free tmr.
sigh, have to rush to 5 different places and i really wish ill have more time with my darlings.

had lunch delivery(thanks!), pocky surprise+dinner(thanks!) and won $50 from mj. wheeeee!

SOMEONE PLEASE WATCH HARRY POTTER WITH ME =(

SHIT! I TOALLY FORGOT ABOUT MY JAP TEST AND ESSAY ASSIGNMENT, ALL BY TMR.
why must everything fits on fri.

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 18:04:29 GMT

another week has ended. my time is passing way too fast, slow down please!

ive repeatedly told myself to leave my 'next week' free to DO THE THINGS I LIKE; meet up with my friends/rest/nua at home etc.
but dont know why my 'next week' is alr packed by the time i realised it.
anyway last friday meet up with girls was greeeeat! haha so much to update but so little time. i still love them, though i was damn pissed when i was seriously POURING OUT MY WOES but they're still bitching. what a friend uh huh!
25th for BREAKFAST 8AM HAHA.
and supper with best friend,shopping therapy at Accessorize and Etude house on Sat with drug addict and meeting up with the rest to hear them rant. maybe i should really bring in some guys' clothes for dolly. dad shared his $200 GST rebate with me and now im $100 richer, love love love henry the most! i hope i can find someone like him as my future husband. how i wish hes 30 yrs younger =(

me,"is jie jie pretty???"
nicholas(the centre one)," YES!"
seriously, arent they cuteeeeee?! haha i love children! they made my day (: KIDS DONT LIE LOL!

kinda like this picture, oh my pretty lim's car is in it too!
dolly's 2nd collection up on tues. loving every piece in this collection, pract kept one of everything teehee, spending before even earning right wth. seriously i think its a wrong decision for me to do a blogshop.

haha nights all im dying of exhaustion.
i like my busy life now though (:

tmr singing session with school peeps, i miss singing!

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 16:14:35 GMT

i used to be so sure of myself, proud of who i am, totally satisfied with the way i lead my life.
some people may not understand the things that i do. and i used to think that its just that they dont understand me and perhaps to some people, i dont even bother explaining.
but now, i dont even understand myself and this scares me. i dont know why am i doing the things i do and the excuse that i made myself to believe, is not justifiable even to ME now.
and this makes me so paranoid with anyone whom tried to enter my life when im still struggling to erase my memories.
i dont mean to hurt anyone. and when im acting the way i was being treated, i felt fucking bad but.. explaining is redundant since i dont really expect any understanding here too. its all the beautiful talks, but when theres real hurt, people will be too busy mending their heart and no one bothers if you're affected. its a fact and ive gotten over this.

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 16:35:17 GMT

supposedly i should have alot to blog about; my new awesome phone, FOD, dinners,my eye candy, upcoming bangkok or hongkong trip.....
but im so so tired now that ive no energy to think.

anyway my parents are damn funny. my mum excitedly played a recording for me. its the conversation she had with my dad before i was home(she secretly recorded it). and my dad was BACKSTABBING me, telling my mum not to let me drive la.. dont allow me to go out till late la...
but the thing is, my dad never dared to say it to me cos he knows i hate people nagging at me. LOL now i know how fake my parents are.

mummy,"your papa very smart lor, always let me be the bad guy. then always pretend to be so good to you. i wont so stupid alr! show you his true colours!" =S

i miss my dad alot =(

need another 20 hours of slp to replenish, IM GONNA FAINT ANYTIME.

seriously hope our holiday trip is gonna work out. steven and shengjie check accomodation okay! ill check air tix (:

im so looking forward to thurs's wedding dinner at four seasons. HAHAHA i love attending wedding dinners, gives me the urge to get married hoho.

okay nights all~
a-not-using-brain post.

if you dont trust, dont ask.

6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls, and sometimes all you need is ONE.

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